The short version:

1. My neighbors smoke so much pot I actually got worried about getting contact high
2. A fire lane is not what I would call a parking space worth $50 a month
3. I’m not down with using child labor to keep the property clean

So I’m bailing. This sucks for a lot of reasons. I’ve really loved riding my bike to work. There’s something so stinking wholesome about riding a bike, and the fresh air and exercise has had a perk I couldn’t have anticipated; I actually have a tan. I can never get a tan, and often hiss at the sun “nasty sun . . . it burnsss usss.” But the half hour trip done in the early morning and late afternoon have slowly brought back bronze that I haven’t seen since high school.

Worse, I equate moving with chaos, unhappiness, and stress in my life. For a long time I’ve wanted to be able to unpack everything I own and finally ditch the plastic tubs that have held my life for the last two years. I don’t know where I’m going next, and the thought of apartment hunting — AGAIN — wearies me. But I’m staying hopeful that I’ll finally find a place that I know won’t vanish from under my feet once I’ve kicked my shoes off and gotten comfortable . . .

Life seems to accelerate so fast sometimes that you don’t even have the ability to stop and take a breath. You are stopped and forced to take a breath, but then you have to get up and run for it. Kind of like bullriding. After a week out of the country and a weekend with my mom, I’m a little dizzy. I could really go for a nice 48 hours of no internet, telephone, e-mail, questions, answers, or decisions. I’m hoping that can happen on Friday night. And Saturday. Probably Sunday too . . .

You know you’re a grownup when a nap sounds more awesome than Disneyland.